As I get older (cliché, I know), I find that each passing year brings more self-reflection. When the page turns from December 31 to January 1, the feeling of wiping the slate clean and refocusing is so comforting and reassuring. 2015 was a mixed bag. It was full of travel and adventure and success (good things), but also intense pressure and professional transitions (challenging things). And that stress and pressure seeped into my personal life (less-than-ideal things). 2015 was a year of constantly feeling off-balance and out of control. I never felt relaxed or settled or content.
In the latter part of the year, I reignited my love for yoga, going to classes at least two times a week. I started to set boundaries for myself, trying to make a concerted effort to leave work at the office and be present with my husband when I’m at home. I don’t want to be constantly “on,” checking email, social media, texting. I want to be in control of my time and not feel overwhelmed by the constant obligations to post on Instagram or reply to an email at 10 pm.
And so I decided that 2016 was going to be a year of balance. Of contentment. Of joy. A year of filling my mind with good things and indulging less in the bad (Goodbye, Us Weekly subscription). I want this to be a year of treating myself and my body better. Less wine (tragic, I know), more yoga and pilates and getting back behind the handlebars of my road bike in the spring. I want to spend more time in the kitchen, trying new recipes. I want to really relax on the weekends and not feel like I need to always be on the go. I want to enjoy the moment.
I miss blogging. I miss writing and having an outlet. I miss testing recipes and decorating and taking photos and reading comments. When I launched Oliver & Belle, I thought it could perhaps turn into a business. But now? Now I just want to enjoy this space and the freedom to stretch my creative muscle on a more frequent basis. It’s part of that whole contentment thing. I can’t promise perfect posting frequency. I can’t promise perfect photography. But I want to promise myself to indulge in the healthy things that make me happy, and this space is one of those things.
Cheers to a new year, a renewed focus, and a whole world of opportunities.